Question about Maxim...?

Well kinda. My husband is over in Iraq. For his birthday I was going to go and get those boudoir pictures done. Its completely out of my element. My husband NEVER watches porn or reads those magazines, but he asked his father to send him some Maxim. He doesn't know I know. I just feel like the boudoir thing is kind of ruined. I'm pretty insecure. I have a few more pounds to lose (like 5), but I just know myself and I'd just compare myself to those girls. What do you ladies think?